Bitten by lots of HUGE ANTS that has super duper sharp teeth and they VIBRATES !!!!

Taaaadaaaa.. After A year of so-called considering. I finally made up my mind and get it done. Do not laugh at me. I knew it's been ages since I said I'm getting a tattoo. Next Monday I'm going for my internship training. So I decided to get it done before that. You might think it's a bit rush but to me it's not :)

I was pretty nervous yesterday night. I wonder how would it feel. Couldn't really sleep well. Haha.. Cause most of my friend told me it's like ant bitting. Well of course I don't believe them. Piercing are easy job for me, I've already had 7. But injection could take my life away. I would have shouted my lungs out if I were to be injected. hahahah. I knew tattooing is even worse. I've tried poking it with toothpick, pen, pinching it and doing whatever I could think of. LOL (too 38)

Went to this tattoo artist that my friend introduced me. She is Kelly V from Inked Tattoo. My first impression for her its :" WHOAH so cool~ and she looks fierce" lol. I dare not even talk to her. I just tried to break the silence one in a while yesterday. We both worked out and finally picked a pink purplish lily flower. I also decided to get it done at the lower back. But actually she wasn't that cool, very friendly indeed. haha.. Sorry >.<>

Love the tattoo so much.. Kelly the best... weeee~~~

The duration was 3 hours. Luckily I have Bel, Chie, Yasmine & KK as company. Or else I think I'll be super nervous. Thanks guys, appreciate lots..

We are pretty noisy but it was fun ;)

Sotong & her tattoo artist Kelly V

SWELL !!! but nice right :)

~The Progress~

I couldn't believe I'm saying this. But It really feels like drawing by using artline pen. Kinda itchy. Some colouring parts are painful, but I could bare with it. So not that bad I guess. But I could definitely say that tattoo is addictive ~ wahahahhaha

More update soon~

Dad bought us a condo in Mont Kiara, will be shifting in soon. weeee~ Finally we get to stay by our own. But then still have to come back for dinner..

Good night peeps,

Sotong

The Road Not Taken

Internship starts next week. I have to decide what University I'm going. I have lots of thoughts in mind. But non of them are firm :( First of all, I don't know where to start. Should I go for the one that is cheaper? Higher ranking? Best recommend? Good environment? Good Facilities? Urghhhhh I wish my dad is filthy rich so I don't need to consider the above matters.

These are the University I have in mind (In sequence):

Best recommend from people around me.

But it is located in London, expenses definitely super duper high.

Located near London. Expenses more or less the same like London Mets.

Has Fashion Design course and Interior Architecture.

Nice campus.XD

Has Fashion Design. But they only have Interior Design :(

Affiliated with my College. Expenses cheaper compare with the above.

But I heard bad rumors about the ID course.

Sigh... My dad thought I will come back after my course. Like asap=.=

But I wish to apply another 2 years of working visa and stay there as long as I could. I never think of coming back at all (if I could find a job there). But he thought that I will come back and take over his business. Frankly, I'm not interested in business. Not even a little. But I hope I can take Fashion Design after I finish my Degree. That will definitely cost a BOOM. aiks~

Happy Chinese New Year

Gong Xi Fa Cai

Happy Chinese New Year to all my beloved friends.

May this new year brings lots of joy and happiness to you all.

In this new year, i wish all of you have a prosperity and great year ahead.

All the best.

In Memorial of My Dearest Cousin

R.I.P

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Flash back to few months ago. The last time I talked to Jess was during Bel's 17th early bird birthday celebration. She made us puddings and brought cupcakes for Bel. That time her baby girl was about 5 months old. She told Maria about her baby girl and they were so exciting chatting about baby stuff in the kitchen.

Everything happened too fast. It was supposed to be a happy occasion after she delivered her baby girl. But apparently, it was not. She was in pain and they noticed that the blood in her leg was clogged. It turned purple and almost bluish. The doctor said they had to remove the leg in order to prevent the rest of the blood got infected.

She was then moved to another hospital and went into ICU. Her leg was better when she shifted there. But they found out that there were several holes in her heart. She was in coma during that period. When the family were discussing whether or not to get the operation done, she woke up and got panic. Her heart pound even faster and that caused more holes in the heart. So the doctor left with no choice but to give her anesthetic. She couldn't stay awake, it will worsen her situation.

Day by day, reports sending here and there. Her situation did not get better but worsen. The doctor said that one of the nerve was clogged. She was way too weak for any operation. All she needs was miracle. From 200g of anesthetic, they had to increase it to 400g to make sure that she stay asleep.

Went to visit her in the ICU. Sorry to say but it was pretty eerie. Tubes all around her body. Her neck and arm were all bloated. Her eyes were covered too. I couldn't recognize here at all. She was supposed to be a happy mum carrying her baby and enjoying her life being a new mother. Not lying on the hospital bed with tons of tubes poking into her body.

She hadn't have a chance to see her baby. Not even carry her in her arms. She hadn't have a chance to breast feed her baby.

And now she was gone. 12 days of struggles and fights in the ward and the evil beat her. She passed away at 11th February 2010, 7:50am. In this 2 weeks time, lots of things happened. From being a mum then went into ICU and now she was gone. I didn't know what to react when I got the news.

Should I say it's better for her to leave? Like what my dad used to tell me when my mum passed away? That she won't suffer so much and could rest in peace? Or should I say that she couldn't leave? Her baby girl is waiting for her in the ward. A new mum life is awaiting her. But no matter what, she left us. All I could hope is she can move on and have a happy life in her next life.

Jess, We will always miss you. Rest in peace.

The Sick Sotong

Sotong is sick. Sick of everything happened recently, sick of her stupid button nose and also her weak body.

Chinese New Year is just a week to go. And I'm already sick. zzzz Never once I'm fine and get to enjoy all the good food during CNY. I always get super sick and didn't get to eat ANYTHING !!

Went to the ENT specialist a few days ago. My nose bleed more and more often :( Went for a nose scoop. Apparently I have very thin blood vessels so whenever I sneeze or rub my nose, it will bleed. It became worse now, when I'm in a air-cond room or when my nose are too dry, it bleeds again. I have to take medication to control my nose. sigh~

The doctor also said that my nose was crooked to the left. So I cannot breath with my left nostrils. Worse come to worst I have to do a surgery and fix it back. Grrrrrr..I have no idea why it crooked all a sudden. Probably because I fell from the stairs and knocked on my nose? But it doesn't hurt. I hope it will be okay. Dad didn't allow me to get my nose fixed. He said that it was pretty dangerous. Haiz~

I'm acting kinda odd these days. I think most of them noticed it. Well, I'm not someone that is good in disguise. I show what I feel and it was written all over my face. I'm born being straight forward. Tough? I guess this word doesn't belong to me. I thought I have it in me, but apparently it doesn't. I always think I'm strong enough to face all the problems I had. No matter what happened to me, I will try my very best to fix it. But recently I have problems over problems, and I'm fucking sick of it. I want to get away, get away from my daily routine and things and peoples around me. I want to go to a place that no one knows me. I knew this is not a good way in solving problems. In a way, this is known as evading. Give me a break, I'm about to collapse.

Be strong be tough ~

Looking at you, lying on the bed unconscious with lots and lots of tube around you. I don't know what to say. I was blank for a moment. I couldn't believe what I saw. I know you are fighting very very hard, because you knew that your baby girl is waiting for you. No matter what, you must fight. You hadn't had a chance to actually look at your baby girl. You still have lots and lots of stuff that you hadn't did with your baby girl. So stay strong and tough. We knew you can do it. All of us are praying hard for you. I knew the god will bless you too. I do believe in miracle and I do believe in you too.