The Memories That Speak

My life is in a mess when I have lots of holidays but nothing for me to be attached. This is how I pass my days recently.

wake up early in the morning -- fetch Bel to school -- come back home and continue sleeping -- wake up around 1pm to fetch Bel -- come back and continue sleeping.. AGAIN !! -- wake up for dinner and go for dance practice -- come back around 12am -- SLEEP =.= What a day :p

Today, when I was arranging my cabinet, I found some old albums. So I scanned them into my PC. Flipping through all those photos, they made me recalled back all the good and bad memories I had when I was younger and some memories that I could barely remember.. :p

Something to share :) Have fun ..

haha, Halloween :p
I was at US that time.. Didn't know I was so coward.. Who knows?
Now I'm in love with all the terror, horror and thrilling movie :3


Scooby-Dooby-Doo, where are you?
This is definitely a classic one.. Always love this :)


Ahhhh, one of my fagvorite photo.. :p
See if you can spot the middle finger that I'm pointing with my kung fu pose.


Taaaadaaa ~ They were gone now, but I was there :)


haha, lovely garbage bag :p it's Halloween.


See if you could remember them :p
It's Bel and my god-brother kasper :)


It's the King and the princess :)
Errrr 7 year old birthday ? Count the candles :p


<3 this.. by adding a fire torch and book i think I will look more alike..


Recharging my power....
BOOM !


hahahahahhahahahha.. I should take one of their recent photos and post it here..
Obviously the very "IN" one is my dad.. lmao


omg, already think of killing myself at that age..


TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADAAAAAAAAAA~
My beloved queen :)
See how gorgeous she was..
Love her style, maybe I should get some similar outfits and take a photo, see if we both look alike :p


Have a great day ahead.
I'm so sleepy, gotta get back to bed again .. :D

The jaw that bite

Hi peeps, i'm back :)

Back without a good condition cause I can't really talk and eat now. :(
Okay, first of all, As you guys knew, I went for my surgery and that made me came up with a conclusion. When a doctor says "it's not painful" please do expect a slight pain, if the doctor says "it's a bit pain" please beware!!! It will be "SUPER DUPER CHERRY BERRY EFFING PAIN"...

Before the surgery,I had 18 japs. Well I only had 9 at first but then the surgeon added another 9 of anesthetic japs due to the fear and tears I had that day(I think he knew the pain I could stand was 0). Gosh luckily dad was there to let me grab his hand during all those japs. Then he was asked to leave the room :( The doctor also told us the risks.....
-might suffer with temporary or permanent numbness at the tongue, cheeks, gum and lips.(only on the gum and tongue, hopefully they will go off soon)
-might have discoloration on the face (so far still okay)
-might have side effect, such as headache (still having it)
-might not able to taste move the tongue permanently or temporary (I still couldn't move it, I hope it's tempo)

I couldn't really see what happened in my mouth, all I could hear were the sounds of drilling, slicing, sawing, cutting, sewing and hell no that is not something you ever heard from a normal dental check-up. Oh ya, when he extracted one of my wisdom tooth, the blood splashed all over his glove, and I think all over my face, it's like a broken tap water. I almost fainted looking at it. I used to have 30 teeth, now I'm left with 22. =.= BOH GEH !!!! I swear if I would ever go through this kinda surgery again, I rather die. Trust me when I say it, I meant it.

The surgery was fast, about an hour-plus and it's done. When dad was asked to come in and have a look, I could see how shocked he was looking at me. I guess I looked bad that time. Dad said I was soooooooooooo pale and I barely could walk in a straight line. He had to hold me all the way to his car. Went home and I was in a HUGE pain (no kidding), I couldn't sleep and I feel dizzy whenever I stood up. I had 2 ponstan but they couldn't help at all. So I took another super strong painkiller by the name of --COD. Well, it took around 2 hours and I was in my deep sleep till the next morning. I slept at the guestroom cause I couldn't walk upstairs and because dad need to wake me up for meds. I woke up the next day trying to grab a drink and I fainted in front of the door instanly =.= My maid saw me and pull me over the couch, while poco thought I was playing with him @.@"

They fed me porridge water WITHOUT PORRIDGE. zzzzz It's worse than any other liquid diet I took.. and I have to wait till it's cool. Yucksssssssss. I rather starve myself but Bel and dad made me finished those yucky-so-called-porridge-water. And yeah, I went Pavillion yesterday, with all the swollen face and pains, I took painkillers so uhm it's numb.I had to put on blusher so I don't look like a vampire with swollen face(but when I got back I noticed I could barely remove my make up... PAIN). We went for ice creams and snowflakes.. haha that's all I could have for my meals. Couldn't walk much though, will get dizzy when I walked up or down. Thanks Cee for accompanying me. Thanks bel for buying me that adorable sotong, love it:) (*ps though you was there for a short while, I knew you were busy but you drove me there and accompany me till Cee arrived, thanks ^^)

My dad was worried, he was like my 24/7 nurse.. He boiled porridge water without porridge, barley without barley and he even remember when and what should I take for my meds.He checked me out like every 5mins? haha.. He even came by my office and brought me for lunch. Bel was caring too, She fed me toufu and that stupid tiny piece of toufu stucked at my wounds.. >.<" She then bought me soup, and she also brought another bowl to let the soup cool down faster (awwwww, how sweet...). She even double checked my soup to make sure it's safe to drink XD A big thanks to you both, muacks <3

awwww it took so many leave within this month, I hope I won't fail because of this :(

haha, I knew I shouldn't post this disgusting photo but yeaaaaa this is me after my surgery. Everyone laughed =.=
Bel thought I was biting cotton buds but I'm not >.< " **forgive me for such a long post. I couldn't talk that's why I posted this.. haha.. Have fun.

The imperfect jaw

In a short while more, I'm going for my surgery. I'm actually very very very nervous and worried about it. I knew I will not feel any pain during the surgery but then I still couldn't accept the fact that the doctor is going to insert all his tools into my mouth for so many hours and I COULD HEAR THE SOUNDS !!! How I wish I could be in my deep dream when the doctor is doing it.. Due to a lot of reasons, I have to stay awake bla bla bla during the surgery. sigh~ Hopefully everything will be fine *pray pray pray*

But the good thing is I'm not going through all the swollen jaw anymore and I'm able to eat NORMALLY. But of course, I can't be eating anything except for Ice cream and jelly for the next couple of weeks. Well, what to do. >.<

Thanks for all the wishes and concerns my friends. Appreciate them a lot.. :)


XOXO,
Reanne

Bitten by lots of HUGE ANTS that has super duper sharp teeth and they VIBRATES !!!!

Taaaadaaaa.. After A year of so-called considering. I finally made up my mind and get it done. Do not laugh at me. I knew it's been ages since I said I'm getting a tattoo. Next Monday I'm going for my internship training. So I decided to get it done before that. You might think it's a bit rush but to me it's not :)

I was pretty nervous yesterday night. I wonder how would it feel. Couldn't really sleep well. Haha.. Cause most of my friend told me it's like ant bitting. Well of course I don't believe them. Piercing are easy job for me, I've already had 7. But injection could take my life away. I would have shouted my lungs out if I were to be injected. hahahah. I knew tattooing is even worse. I've tried poking it with toothpick, pen, pinching it and doing whatever I could think of. LOL (too 38)

Went to this tattoo artist that my friend introduced me. She is Kelly V from Inked Tattoo. My first impression for her its :" WHOAH so cool~ and she looks fierce" lol. I dare not even talk to her. I just tried to break the silence one in a while yesterday. We both worked out and finally picked a pink purplish lily flower. I also decided to get it done at the lower back. But actually she wasn't that cool, very friendly indeed. haha.. Sorry >.<>

Love the tattoo so much.. Kelly the best... weeee~~~

The duration was 3 hours. Luckily I have Bel, Chie, Yasmine & KK as company. Or else I think I'll be super nervous. Thanks guys, appreciate lots..

We are pretty noisy but it was fun ;)

Sotong & her tattoo artist Kelly V

SWELL !!! but nice right :)

~The Progress~

I couldn't believe I'm saying this. But It really feels like drawing by using artline pen. Kinda itchy. Some colouring parts are painful, but I could bare with it. So not that bad I guess. But I could definitely say that tattoo is addictive ~ wahahahhaha

More update soon~

Dad bought us a condo in Mont Kiara, will be shifting in soon. weeee~ Finally we get to stay by our own. But then still have to come back for dinner..

Good night peeps,

Sotong

In Memorial of My Dearest Cousin

R.I.P

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Flash back to few months ago. The last time I talked to Jess was during Bel's 17th early bird birthday celebration. She made us puddings and brought cupcakes for Bel. That time her baby girl was about 5 months old. She told Maria about her baby girl and they were so exciting chatting about baby stuff in the kitchen.

Everything happened too fast. It was supposed to be a happy occasion after she delivered her baby girl. But apparently, it was not. She was in pain and they noticed that the blood in her leg was clogged. It turned purple and almost bluish. The doctor said they had to remove the leg in order to prevent the rest of the blood got infected.

She was then moved to another hospital and went into ICU. Her leg was better when she shifted there. But they found out that there were several holes in her heart. She was in coma during that period. When the family were discussing whether or not to get the operation done, she woke up and got panic. Her heart pound even faster and that caused more holes in the heart. So the doctor left with no choice but to give her anesthetic. She couldn't stay awake, it will worsen her situation.

Day by day, reports sending here and there. Her situation did not get better but worsen. The doctor said that one of the nerve was clogged. She was way too weak for any operation. All she needs was miracle. From 200g of anesthetic, they had to increase it to 400g to make sure that she stay asleep.

Went to visit her in the ICU. Sorry to say but it was pretty eerie. Tubes all around her body. Her neck and arm were all bloated. Her eyes were covered too. I couldn't recognize here at all. She was supposed to be a happy mum carrying her baby and enjoying her life being a new mother. Not lying on the hospital bed with tons of tubes poking into her body.

She hadn't have a chance to see her baby. Not even carry her in her arms. She hadn't have a chance to breast feed her baby.

And now she was gone. 12 days of struggles and fights in the ward and the evil beat her. She passed away at 11th February 2010, 7:50am. In this 2 weeks time, lots of things happened. From being a mum then went into ICU and now she was gone. I didn't know what to react when I got the news.

Should I say it's better for her to leave? Like what my dad used to tell me when my mum passed away? That she won't suffer so much and could rest in peace? Or should I say that she couldn't leave? Her baby girl is waiting for her in the ward. A new mum life is awaiting her. But no matter what, she left us. All I could hope is she can move on and have a happy life in her next life.

Jess, We will always miss you. Rest in peace.